I Wish I Never Met You

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I love you, and wished that you knew that, but I am afraid. It’s just been too many damn times, my poor heart has been broken. I know what it feels like, to have been hurt bad, to never want to love again. but you, I still  love you, I am afraid of love.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like ‘maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘how very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." - Ross Walker"

My fear is like a wall I walk right through. The wall is there, and yet it doesn’t stop me. I need it still, and yet I still need you.

"Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, pain of love lasts a lifetime.The pain of love is the pain of being alive. It is a perpetual, eternal, everlasting, permanent wound"

Love is very scary, however it can be the most beautiful feeling that
you could ever experience.You need to take your time before you take
that leap, making sure that he really feels the same way that you do.(
meaning that it is not just a physical love) and it is the love that
satisfy you mind, body and soul.

I guess this is my story, love story that scarred me for life. Every time I fall in love, I see forever.

"How come whenever I think I’m over you, then you talk to me and make me feel like I’m the most loved person in the world. And then I realize I still love you and I can’t or won’t get over you. Sometimes…not too often…but sometimes…I get hit with the memory of how much you meant to me just when I thought I was finally okay with forgetting."

The story of exs, i hate memories!!! They haunt  you.  I go back in time some to remember the "good times". But exs are always there to remind me that those weren’t really good times at all, especially the one you love the most.

I hate "things will never be the same again". I hate it when things turn to be memories, when you don’t have them anymore. Sometimes you don’t feel the difference people make in your life until they’re gone. You think your life sucks but you discover that it sucks far more after you lose something, and only then you remember those days and say oh I wish everything stayed the same.
I hate changes of this kind…I hate losing people,I hate it when all I have is memories..I didn’t know how much someone brightens my days until it became only memories.

I wish I never met you…


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