When you’ve found a love so poetic and profound, things are no longer always how they used to. It’s one of those major changes that happen inside that’s got a lot of say at how you live your life while that love is alive. It’d be too hard to brush off, too impossible to ignore.
When you have finally recognized that it is really what it is and not just some of your hopeless imagination, you tend to get alarmed. But why?…
We have so much fear in us because we know we are transcending in another reality. One day you were just thinking about it and its impossibility in happening to you, next thing you know, you’re facing what’s foreign to you.You may get caught off guard. Some may have experienced it a couple of times, and yes I believe it can happen more than once in your life, but somehow when it’s your first time… you have to prepare yourself and say hello to too many frustrations and “almost giving-up” moments. You get frustrated with yourself and not with the person your giving this to. It’s no one’s fault but in a way yours. You may have responded to what you feel inside in just the acceptable way, the “normal way”, but still, this never happens without your permission.
At first, you may not have sensed the danger of your simple tolerance of petty pleasure by getting close to the person you “like”. It gets fired up too though. You’re fueling something that starts with a small spark but can burn the whole village.This “love” I’m talking about doesn’t happen overnight. You don’t look at someone for the first time and say you are madly in love. What there was was attraction. Which yeah, if permitted could grow into something deeper and eventually something life-changing.
No one make someone else change. If you’ve become the person that you were after you got burned, it’s not because of that person who dumped you. It’s you. Just you.No one can ruin your life unless you let anyone. You then get deluded by the thought that it’s just right to blame it to that person who’d hurt you so much. But you may always think again..and again, and again. Until you reach enough maturity, you would never resolve it to yourself that it’s no one’s fault you got burned. It’s just how it is. The other party happens not to feel the same way. You can’t be unfair and just give all the credit to that person.
They say there’s always this one-great-love you’d never forget. I say, “You’d never forget all of them”. Each person would always leave a part of them to you, and you’d always leave a part of yourself with them too. It’s too impossible to forget. The feeling may fade and all that but they are part of your history. They’re written somewhere in your book, Book of life? char.
In my walk through finding my own, maaaan! I can’t comprehend how I was able to let so many stupid things happen. haha! I guess I’m not alone. I’m just thankful though that it is natural for me to accept reality.lol
I don’t want to discuss them some more. They’re good to remember when you’re happy, they magnify the gratefulness in you at that very moment you are looking back... Now, I am just looking back.
