why I am feeling more empty and alone like this.  knowing that accept far as to disadvantaged ... also has comforted many times and tried to pass, but the reality is not what I thought .... Maybe I take interest more so , I have asked too much , then people do not appreciate , what they see is getting it and of course it nothings to change it all .... so normal ... I offended and hurt  oh... so sad away...

But sad to say and who do not know, do not know how to say ... Time is temporarily unable to think about , do not care any more, let alone a quiet moment to think.