Though injured two children and live scene scared me share "dad stepfather stepmother", there is encircled by grandparents, but I longed for a man to depend on warm bed.

I got married at age 19 - the age of the girls began to lecture, to be loved and lived for the most beautiful days of my life youth. And then I got married 2 children born. Hard life with her husband and the children themselves. Marriage breakdown as a thing altogether.

My husband fall into addiction and beat my mother scolded. On the first working day of the life of my child's parents whip lash. There are drugs drunk yesterday, my husband's mother on fire all three children. May I quickly vacuum the children burned to death also. Working to foster both the long-term care of remedies at his parents is quite enough; I have to earn money for her husband è shoulder with drugs.

Grandparents did not protect him when his son to drug intoxication. Determined to go beyond the black hole's life, I took my two children placed in Saigon (I take home from the North).

In Saigon, with the help of an acquaintance I found a job. With my co-worker's salary is only enough to feed two. Elder daughter suffered whether to leave school at the age of class 1. Fortunately, I was living in sympathy and encircled her in the village inn. Everyone loved my two children. Someone had to go to work on the cake, for the old clothes. Anyone sympathetic and very merciful mother of three.

While away from home, living hard to support her children. But are subject to a daily reprieve from bouts of mental torture and body of my husband is strong enough to fight. Stepping away in my heart longing is only one working and raising two children grow up. But did not dare to dream with a different man.

How many times have I vowed to live for children because children. If you have to leave everything the life I do not need anything but live for you. Still not win rational emotion, every night I still crave a man inside her.

every night I still crave his side a man

I still crave his side a man hugging each night the secret heart (illustration)

How many men want "cable" to me. Sometimes I fear not dare to accept for injured children. Sometimes extreme I want to maul someone to cling to. For families with a man, to join me in sharing the difficulties of life. And to satisfy the desire still burns in the heart of a woman is not round 30.

How my heart is torn. Multiple doses driving home when a strange man. And also tenderness, meals and fun as her former husband. Initially, he also loves my two children. And also tenderness, meals and fun as her former husband. For a while I forget I'm a mother and vows to live for two children.

I rounded the new kid 4 years old, it is not aware of the presence of strangers in an apartment cramped. It's just fun to have people take me to the park and buy some toys for superheroes. And my oldest daughter, now is probably in grade 1, it is at the age begin to learn and be aware of right and wrong. It's when he knew his mother was there one man other than her father. Sometimes my daughter or more irritable, universal mother and say the words that I myself could not think.

Neighbors also out in whispers: "How Thought but finally took the boy home. She Training (my maiden name) how good is, then it's just mother alone! "

Love for me is always a headache for me

Love for me is always a headache for me (Artwork)

I just really awake when he heard his daughter said: "I do not like fussy mother with uncle, also did not like him at his house."

I love my two children very much, but I would like for myself. I still blazing vitality of a woman who was too young, and want to be loved.

I do not know where I should stop to get happiness for ourselves and integrity for both children. I also countless times to understand what is good for you, but I just scared myself could not resist it with all the storms of life.

What should I do to just raise their two children to person, just put a small dream - the woman's family, the rear of a certain man?