The title of my life story pretty much sums it up.  As a child I remember mostly happiness and a normal family life . Well at least I thought so for many years until I had problems in my life and I  reflected back into my childhood to try to figure out why. Why was I the person I was ? Why did I become the person I became ? It took me years to figure it out and to stop trying to figure myself out and truly get some help and make the very necessary changes in my life to get well , physically first then mentally and most of all I was spiritually sick and I had no idea i was or even what it was I heard spiritually and I thought  that was god or religion . well let me tell you my story I was born in Boston,Mass was brought up 1/2 my childhood in dorchester the other half in South Boston {southie} where is not important believe me. IT might have a little to do with the influences around me growing up but thats about it. Honestly my troubles really got worse when i left southie' so here goes .