The years have been quickly fading, phases of our life here pass, the joys and the sorrows. I dare to dream, and now realize how uncertain tomorrow will always be, and I don't see me without him. I know myself, and I could not make it without him, at the most a few days. I'm self-sufficient in my small world, but in the bigger picture I could not function alone. Emotionally I would crumble, and I've always known this.

I feel rather sure I will go before him, not only am I older but I have health issues that cut my lifespan an estimated eight years. Given too, if he is anything like his father, he could live into his 90's. This saddens me too, to think of him without me. They should allow departures from this earth together.