"My Heart is Like Squeezed by an Angry Man"

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Who Was It With? 

It's with my schoolmate (the one I love) / HIM.

When Did You Realize It was Love? 

I found out that I was in love when I started thinking of him.

What Did It Feel Like? 

Actually it was so very unexplainable, I dreamt of that person, I think of him EVERY TIME, when I bathe, before and after sleep. Every time I didn't get a text or a call from him, I get disappointed. And when I can't see him in school, I always find a way to see his face. When I had a chance to talk to him personally, it's like my voice is on mute. Geez, I felt like I am the very lucky girl in the world whenever I reminisce. When I see his smile, it's like I am going to melt.

What Happened Next? 

Yes, he courted. But I refused and said "I'm too young for that." He said he'll wait. Well, TADA!! It's been almost a year, and since the day he courted our relationship became stronger and stronger. No commitments. But, when I saw him with another girl, my heart is like squeezed by an angry man and sadly I cannot do anything, because he's not mine. We're just stupid dorks. In love with each other. YES, I love him. But we are not couples. We are more than friends but less than lovers. Every day, he tells me he loves me very much, and he'll wait. He loves me and I love him, there's no problem with that. Sometimes, Jealousy is really the problem. Even though I'm jealous, I still love him.

Lessons Learned

  • LOVE your lover as much as you can. When that person is gone, there you can realize the importance of that particular person. And sadly, you can't bring the past back anymore. Seize every moment with him. Don't find a way to stop loving, because when it's not yours, it'll find a way, when it's yours, He'll stay. <3


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