Lately it has been difficult to write and let out the words that could best describe what I feel, what I want, what I am. I've always loved to write and always felt very comfortable with it, now I find myself here trying in vain to expose ideas that I still have to reorganize. The truth is that, in my opinion, the words I know are insufficient and don't support such a reality - that's why it's difficult for me to show in words what I can only show by actions.
Anyway, for me the words aren't the most important because they often don't match the true. As we shall all agree: it's easier to say than actually fulfill. So I give more value to attitudes than to words, because words can be said without being felt or without match what we think, at least it's easier to lie with words than actions. Still, of course I don't disregard the importance and weight of the good use of the words, the right word at the right time can change the mood to anyone. The ability to speak is a very precious gift and I even venture to say it's probably something essential in our everyday life.
However, it's natural to feel more touched by certain gestures, it isn't by chance that we say "a picture is worth a thousand words". Most of the time is through the attitudes that we discover the true essence of someone. Even if the shyness and the will to hide feelings can affect this demonstration, I believe it's much easier to realize the core of a person by the way someone acts, especially in unforeseen circumstances.
It seems to me that this difference is a major reason why it feels easier to talk to someone virtually: the other person doesn't attend to our reactions and we don't feel so intensely the reactions of that person. In my case, even if I feel more relaxed when I talk through these modern means of communication, I prefer to talk personally, so I can better understand the mood and the person's reactions to what I'm talking about.
One thing is certain: my way of seeing the world has undergone many changes and, with each passing day, my desire to know the world better increases. Every day I learn something new, I detect on anything a detail that until then I hadn't noticed or I end up with some self-doubt. What I do know is that there is still plenty to see, hear, feel, say, know, learn; and the more I discover the more I have a feeling that I know nothing about life.