My boyfriend Matt and I have been together for 8 years. We were even engaged at one point and were to get married. We were really happy I'd say for the first 5 years. I think it all started going downhill after he lost his great concrete job 3 years ago.
I bought a house at the end of March this year and had him move in with me to help with the bills. Today I plan on packing up all of his things and having him leave for good.
I just can't take it anymore. Ever since he started going downhill, I have tried to help him climb back up the hill. I guess he never got his footing and kept slipping and sliding downward.
Everyday is the same fight. Every night is the same fight. I am afraid he is just causing me stress and bringing me down. So many people have told me this but I wanted to be hopeful that things were going to get better. Truth is, I can now see that it is just going to be the same thing everyday.
This is our daily routine. I wake him up at 6am to go to work. I go to work at 3pm and come him between 12am-2am depending on if I go to the gym or not. He comes home around 2-3am all sloppy and drunk, destroying things in his path. He says hurtful things to me that he cannot take back. I try to get him to go to sleep but we just keep fighting until he passes out drunk outside in the middle of smoking a cigarette. He wakes up in the morning and passes out naked on the toilet. Then I wake up again after an hour of sleep to wake him up at 6am to do it all over again.
I cannot do that routine anymore. I deserve better than this. I love him very much but I have to do what is best for me. You only have one life to live and I have to make mine the best I can. I already dropped all of my old friends that brought me down. Now I only have one person left to drop and that is unfortunately Matt. It really breaks my heart... <//3 Alcohol ruins lives and relationships.